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Thread: What if I told you that she loved you so much?

  1. #1
    Previously Important
    Registered: Nov 1999
    Location: Caer Weasel, Uelekevu

    What if I told you that she loved you so much?

    My life is great and it didn't used to be. I swing up and down like anyone else, and like many other people my pendulum gets extreme. The measure of love is the sticktoitiveness when the extremes become crazy and the strain is immense.

    She swung just as hard, but we passed up and down on our own routes. Down and up. Up and down. Passing, smiling, encouraging, high-fives from the Great White North to the City of Sin. From ground zero we knew each other, no need for clarifications or explains... we were humans and honest and beautiful. Well, not so much me but you get the idea.

    Old Heads know the talk of HAY GUISE WE GETTIN MARRIED but probably no one but me and Starrfall knew the depth of MsLedd's (retrospectively cartoonish and insane) devotion to the love two idiot Internet faghats had for each other. Not for her and I would be in a whole other dimension, never living or breathing or feeling all the joy I have felt for more than a dozen years now. Cold and damp I would be squatting, not proud and rough as I am now.

    She loved me, she loved you, she loved us. Please believe when I say it. I spent an actually uncountable number of nights from dusk to dawn online with her as we tried to fix the horrific mess that TTLG's backend used to be. She was so proud of this place, and you (we) made her proud. She felt love, she was love. And now we need to set that boat on fire.

    I'm still in shock. I have no tears yet. I have no answers yet. I don't know a damned thing except that Mara has died.

    I'm so sorry to say such a thing. I simply don't know what else to do with my grief yet.

    Peace be on us all.

  2. #2
    Moderator and Priest
    Registered: Mar 2002
    Location: Dinosaur Ladies of the Night
    What? No.

    I want to say more, but I don't even know where to begin.

  3. #3
    Registered: Aug 2004
    Rest in peace.

  4. #4
    El Pato
    Registered: Jul 2000
    Location: Under your fingernails.

  5. #5
    What the actual fuck? Nooo...

  6. #6
    Registered: Apr 2003
    Location: Wales
    There are no words.

  7. #7
    Registered: Oct 2000
    Location: Athens of the North
    That's a complete shock

  8. #8
    Registered: Jan 2003
    Location: NeoTokyo
    She was one of us.
    I'm no good with sadness, and there's a lot of it these days, it seems.
    Clear skies, Mara. Remember us.

  9. #9
    Level 10,000 achieved
    Registered: Mar 2001
    Location: Finland

  10. #10
    Registered: Dec 2001
    Location: OldDark Detox Clinic
    So sad...

  11. #11
    Registered: Feb 2005
    but... but... she had just posted on the Nuthaus! ((((

  12. #12
    Registered: Dec 1999
    Location: Black Squadron
    I don't post anymore, but I do read quite regularly. I am devastated, such a shocking loss. Rest in peace, Mara

  13. #13
    Chakat sex pillow
    Registered: Sep 2006
    Location: not here
    I know she'd been through some difficult times, and always wanted to reach out and tell her things were going to be all right in the end, but never knew what to say, or how to say it.

    I still don't.

    Rest in peace, Mara.

  14. #14
    Registered: Feb 2001
    Location: Somewhere

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  16. #16
    Registered: May 2004
    What terrible news. Rest in peace.

  17. #17
    Registered: Oct 2012
    Location: UK
    I didn’t know MsLedd, only by name and reading her postings on here, like I “know” many of you in this community. Reading of a fellow TTLGer slipping this mortal coil is terrible news... heartbreaking. For GBM and those who truly knew Mara, as well as her family, I am at a loss for you and my heart goes to you all. Rest in peace MsLedd.
    Last edited by Bosh; 29th Sep 2018 at 06:56. Reason: typo

  18. #18
    Registered: May 2003
    Location: Minecraft
    Well this sucks.

    I mostly lurk on here, but many years back Mara said she had several copies of Thief Gold, it was relatively rare before it became readily available on Steam. I got in touch and bought one off her and she offered to burn a bunch of FMs for me as well, which was great as I was still on dial-up back then. It was a small thing, but very thoughtful, she made me feel like part of the community.

    RIP Mara, you will be missed.

  19. #19
    Registered: Sep 2005
    Location: Not Kansas
    Oh my God, NO! I'm having trouble wrapping my brain around this. Not our beloved MsLedd!!

  20. #20
    What the hell?!

  21. #21
    Registered: May 2004
    Location: Canuckistan GWN
    I came online early when I heard on the news that the UK government was barging ahead with fracking my old homeland. I didn't imagine there might be far worse news waiting.

    How terribly sad.

  22. #22
    Registered: Apr 2000
    Location: The Docks
    Wow, this is shocking. Just saw her post in the nuthaus and all seemed fine. Hard to believe. My condolences.

  23. #23
    Desperately Dodgy Moderator
    Registered: Nov 2001
    Location: Bohn Museum

  24. #24
    Gone, but not forgotten
    Registered: Dec 1999
    Location: Everywhere
    This is another stupid prank, yeah?

  25. #25
    Registered: Feb 2001
    Genuinely shocked, I don't know what to say. Mara always seemed larger than life, and it's quite unfathomable to my brain at the moment that this has happened. We'll miss you Mara.

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